Come Back Down
yeah, these nights feel so good - but this one's almost gone. (hell, I stopped the sunset in the middle of the day).
  • ariana-news:

    Ariana Grande - Break Free - Live on the Honda Stage at the iHeartRadio Theater LA

    So, most people know that I’m not necessarily the biggest ariana fan, but driving home from the beach tonight this song came on and it just hit me.
    Drugs & booze were the loves of my life. More than any person. They were there on my good days, on my bad days, on my okay days. They comforted me when I was scared, they kept me warm when I was cold, they made me laugh. They were always down for whatever: dancing until 5am, lazy days, movie marathons, traveling, binge watching netflix, dinner parties, house parties. They were there when no one else was.

    And like any great love, they tested me. They asked, “how far will you go for me?” and I said “there are no boundaries I wont cross. I will do anything for you.” And I proved that over and over and over again. When they disappeared on me I screamed and said “I’ll search until I find you. I love you. I wont let you go.”

    But things got abusive. I got obsessive. They beat me until I was covered in bruises, until I was ashamed and terrified to get out of bed. But I didnt think I could live without them. I couldn’t say no to them, no matter how many times I swore I would. I tried to remember the good times but they got farther and farther away. The nights of fun and laughter became nights of unbearable loneliness and sobbing that shook my soul.

    I would have died for them. And I almost did. I never thought I’d see the day when I would say that I was done. But here I am and I am so much better for saying goodbye. Things are far from perfect - as hard as I chased whiskey and benzos, I’m running after my recovery and some days I get tired, run down and discouraged. But I miss them less and less every single day. And I know, without any doubt, that I do not need them. And this song, in its own sickeningly poppy way, is the perfect anthem. [This is the part when I say I dont want you. Im stronger than I’ve been before.]
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  • http://youtu.be/RCb8gmllbvU [it’s almost september, im pining for the moon]
  • http://youtu.be/RCb8gmllbvU [it’s almost september, im pining for the moon]

  • yoursocialconstructsareshowing:

    recreational-cannibalism:

    relyonloveonceinawhile:

    whatmariadidnext:

    two4fit:

    TABLOID HEADLINES WITHOUT THE SEXISM

    "WOMAN IN TRACKSUIT PROBABLY NOT DISOWNED BY ENTIRE FAMILY"

    "It’s mildly breezy outside."

    That ‘hunk of the week’ ad is pretty ironic, considering the goal of this involves abolishing the objectification of women. Being sexualized by the media and general public is- contrary to popular belief- not exclusively a female problem.

    How is finding a man attractive the same thing as sexually objectifying one??

    (via face--the--strange)

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  • aseaofquotes:

David Wong, This Book Is Full of Spiders
  • aseaofquotes:

    David Wong, This Book Is Full of Spiders

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  • thegetty:

Art changes the world.
A journey into Yellowstone Valley required days of arduous travel via rail stagecoach and mule train in the 1870s.  Moved by images like this one by Jackson, the government designated the area a national park in 1872.
Today is the 98th Birthday of the National Parks Service.
Old Faithful, 1870, William Henry Jackson. J. Paul Getty Museum.
  • thegetty:

    Art changes the world.

    A journey into Yellowstone Valley required days of arduous travel via rail stagecoach and mule train in the 1870s.  Moved by images like this one by Jackson, the government designated the area a national park in 1872.

    Today is the 98th Birthday of the National Parks Service.

    Old Faithful, 1870, William Henry Jackson. J. Paul Getty Museum.

    (via 3rdofmay)

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  • aseaofquotes:

J.R. Ward, Dark Lover
  • aseaofquotes:

    J.R. Ward, Dark Lover

    (via aseaofquotes)

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  • Someone posted this on my facebook and it is everything.
  • Someone posted this on my facebook and it is everything.

    (via iloveyoursoul)

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  • "The definition of forgiveness is giving up all hope of a better past."
    Anonymous (via spiritofrecovery)
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  • (Source: hap19)

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  • "

    Buddhist Third Step Prayer

    With every breath I take today,
    I vow to be awake;

    And every step I take,
    I vow to take with a grateful heart—

    So I may see with eyes of love
    into the hearts of all I meet,

    To ease their burden when I can
    And touch them with a smile of peace

    "

    Ive always loved the simplicity and directness of the NA third step prayer (some of us have said: take my will and my life, guide me in my recovery, show me how to live). My favorite meetings start with the serenity prayer and end with the third step prayer. I do appreciate the AA third step prayer (god, I offer myself to thee - to build with me and to do with me as thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better to thy will. Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of thy power, thy love, and thy way of life. May I do thy will always). Anyone who knows me though can probably tell that sounds a little too religious for me.

    I recently discovered the buddhist third step prayer and today, on my 90th day clean and sober, its beautiful enough to make me cry. It is now, easily, my favorite prayer.

  • "One day I woke up
    and we no longer spoke
    the same language.
    I haven’t heard from you since."
    Where did you go?, Hishaam Siddiqi (via bl-ossomed)

    (Source: pridefulvanity, via so-thisismylife)

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  • grancentral:

    Listen: Caribou - Our Love

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  • When we come together to , we can help create a safer world for men and women, boys and girls.  (x)

    (Source: fuckyeahmeganhilty, via so-thisismylife)

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  • "Your mother did not raise you with a wolf in your chest so you could howl over losing a man."
    read this on here today and i haven’t stopped thinking about this quote since (via pluiedem)

    (via extraordinaryfearlessness)

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